Unworthy Written Words of All Hidden Within

 This feeling of insecurity,

Mixed with uncertainty,

That I am and have nothing,

Of all that I do,

Ended up in vain.

Someone told me,

“Be patient, what’s yours will be yours”,

I question,

“How will it be if I don’t fight for it?”

She says,

“No matter how big your fight is, He determines what’s best”

Would you laugh if I say…

I have big dreams.

As tall as the KLCC tower touching the clouds.

Would you secretly think it’s impossible if I tell you..

There’s where I want to end up.

Would you trust me if I say..

I am capable of doing it?

Despite my non-existent first class scroll?

Despite my weak mind?

Despite all silly mistakes and questions?

Would you believe if I say…

I don’t know where to begin?

Or how to get there.

And myself having doubts that I can do it?

This you have to believe when I say…

I have nothing special,

Am not smart, nor do I have the strength.

But I know I’ll do anything to prove my worthiness.

Though I am certain,

A fight in an ocean of men,

Is a bloody fight,

Victory may not even see the light.

Do you know?

I ponder on these each night.

When my heart is crushed,

I grumble, I become furious,

Filled with rage,

I play the blame game.

But then…

When my senses return,

I know my friend is right.

For experience has taught me,

Whatever is not mine,

Is not just supposed to be mine.

But what’s mine is waiting at the end of the road,

Something better.

And I know I’ll keep on fighting,

For I have faith in One,

Who never fails to keep His Promises.

And He Promises…

He’ll give only the best for me.