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I am going to step into my years of being in 20's. Well, though I still have months to go and I am still a TEENager, but somehow my mind seems to be occupied with some thinking. Oh, since when do I NOT at least think of something?
Anyway,point to be made is.
As I savour the past 20 years of my life, I began to realise that I haven't really achieved anything on my own.
Yes true, academically I am doing well, so far, alhamdulillah. But, what I am saying is things that are apart from academics. Things that perhaps I have interest in but I don't seem to be developing them well. Perhaps, NOT at all.
I look at some of my friends. There are those who like photography so much, and they end up making money with what they like to do! Some love being on stage, singing or playing musical instruments and they took their chances, perform their own bands, had their own show. Yet ME? Still being the same ME I had been for the past 20 years of mine. Playing The Sims 2 kind of pointing to me that I don't have many skills with me.
I had a very big passion for debating, but I stopped soon after I finished my high school. My reason was because in my current Uni, there aren't many debates available and it is kind of hard for me to find teammates, even if there is any. But, those are reasons that I made up. If I truly want it, which I do miss debating terribly, I'll seek for opportunites like that. Maybe I am not such a good speaker and bla bla bla, but that doesn't mean I don't belong to the stage.I like writing. I don't know why, I just enjoy having people reading my stories. Back in high school, every time my teacher returned my test papers, the BM paper 2, there were these two friends of mine, they'd asked to read my stories. Because they said, they were different from any other they've read. Not to boast, but I am just quoting their comments. But, even if I have the gift or talent to make people actually stick to read what I have written, I definitely have not gone anywhere with it.
Perhaps I know where I went wrong. I wasn't brave enough to take up chances, to grab opportunitues, or even look for one. Maybe I am afraid of losing or failing. Or just plain LAZY! Which ever way, I am the one who's losing.

But, as I watched all my other friends, I know, everything come with risks. And maybe if I am able to get through them all, I might feel satisfied even more with myself. So, I am making a promise that I will try my best to seize every opportunities that come and if there aren't any, I'll seek for one.
Hopefully, I am brave and willing enough to face the challenges and everything it takes for me to do what I like most in life,with Allah's will :)